I think too much. I think ahead. I think behind. I think sideways. I think it all. If it exists, I’ve f**king thought of it.

listening to playlists Sam made bc his music taste was always beautiful and i need new music and i miss having a person in my life who loved music as much as me and adored having it on the background to everything. i miss being made playlists and introduced to new bands, artists, songs. 

but it’s making me sad and i’m here with mat and that’s not ok